the thoughtful moon

One of my favorite memories is when I found out I was pregnant with my firstborn. I was 22, married for about 9 months and living in a place where we knew no one. We barely knew each other honestly. Anyways, we had been married in July and didn’t live together until November because of him still being in Navy school(I can’t remember the actually terminology lol). I had no job, no job prospects, and no car because the only car we had was the one I brought up to Virginia, and he drove that to work. Boredom was the word of the day everyday. We enjoyed March madness and all the things and at the end of March, I was late. You can time me like a clock and I was never late. So we bought soooooo many pregnancy tests. At least 5 maybe even 6 or 7(lol). All positive. It was a shock but as I am with most of my life, I didn’t really think about the implications, I was just happy for the new change coming to our lives. So on that April 1st, we chose to tell family about the new addition. Such a great decision, right?! It took me at least 10 minutes to convince my mom I wasn’t April fools-ing her because I like jokes and it would be very like me to make this joke. But I wasn’t joking and I was pregnant and boy did I not have a clue what the hell I was getting myself into. Eventually, reality sunk in and I would become a mother. At 23. With not a clue what that involved, what kind of toll it would take and what that meant for my future. But it was also to one of the best sons, older brothers, and fun loving humans I have ever known. This boy has been through more than any child should and I hate that. But he is also kind and understanding and helpful in so many ways because of that. He has been more sheltered because of it and will have to be thrown from the nest but he is going to do such amazing things in the world. I do not regret a single decision that brought me to have my Tex. 

Also his taste in music is amazing and I love the person he’s becoming. His favorite song right now is Let it happen by Tame Impala. Check it out!